The Cookbook Junkies

….in my head I know my son will always have Asperger’s….he will always have his quirks…his anxiety…but my heart – it rages against every regression – every set back…

the last couple weeks Andrew has started to chew his sleeve, the fronts of his shirts…
he pulls up his shirt and he used to play with his belly button – now its his nipple (sounds funny but not); he does it all the time
pacing and worrying more, totally anxiety striken about making people gifts
noises bothering him more

now today he is starting some weird breathing thing – I ask him “are you okay?” – “yes, mommy, I’m making a pattern”.

we’re lucky – he is high functioning, smart – very smart, cute and funny as hell and loving….but sometimes you just want to cry.

Spoke to my doctor on Tuesday night – such a great doctor she is – calls me at 8:45 pm and talks to me for 30 minutes. The chest x-ray was normal, the sonogram showed my spleen to be slightly enlarged but not worrisome and that I had two gallstones. She asked me about my fevers….I read my log. I went through a list of things that I thought could make this happen – her answer to each “no”. So Tuesday I have to have a CAT scan and then we’ll do blood cultures and then the lymph node biopsy. Happy Birthday to me…at least my scan is a day before my birthday – I can get that out of the way.

Starting to gear up for Christmas. Going to bake next weekend (the 19th) alot for the teachers and neighbors. We’re going out on the Island Saturday to cut down our tree – then Sunday we’ll buy and put up Flo’s tree and lights.

Happy Holidays. I’m tired already.

I love the Fall. It’s my favorite time of year. Fall, Winter, Spring and Summer – in that order (I don’t even like summer but I have to rank it somewhere).

I’m doing a Fall Foodie Swap – one of the blogs I follow A Dozen Eggs (http://adozeneggs.com/wordpress/) has organized it. I love this kind of stuff – even though this is the first one I’m doing. Yes, I have sent boxes of things to friends that I have enjoyed picking up – but this is an official swap – where I will indeed get something back and I did today (see picture above)!!!!! Thank you Patti – I love everything. Andrew wants the pasta tonight! (I’m making brown sugar chicken, herb crusted pork loin, roasted garlic potatoes, carrots and green beans – I’ve already made a dutch apple cheesecake, brownies, giant decorated sugar cookie and pecan pies (that didn’t set properly – I never had that happen – darn it – so we picked up a chocolate mousse cake just for insurance)…but I still have to make the pasta).

A friend sent me this message on facebook: “hey…my mom said the other day she saw Andrew & he was going “im not gonna do it, im not gonna do it, im not gonna do it” so shes like “Andrew, what are you not going to do?” and hes still going “im not gonna do it, im not gonna do it” so shes like “Andrew whats wrong? what arent you going to do?” and he goes “im not gonna cry, im not gonna cry” hahahaha I found that to be so funny!!!!! Very cute!”

It made me sad – poor kid has so much anxiety.

We got good news yesterday – Andrew doesn’t have the same mutation as his father! Hooray – he has an MYH variant – like his Aunt Nora – and will probably need monitoring in the future – but for right now – he’s good – thank God!

Happy Fall!